Hello and assalamualaikum c: Sooooo it has been a long time and by long i mean a very looooooooong time since i last updated and yeah, you guess it right. I'm back people!
yay!
Sooooo a lot of things are happening right now, and my supposed to be holiday turns out to be sooo busy with tuitions, some business with new school and you know, stuffs. And you know what's so funny? Four years ago i was so opposed to the idea of transferring to mrsm like, seriously protested to it. I mean, i basically stayed in my room sulking for who knows how many days because i don't want to leave the school and my friends. And turns out four years later, i was going back to the school and meet my friends again yaaaaay! Only the difference was, this time i don't feel a thing. Okay, maybe I'm a bit sad, well scratch that, i am soooo sad i literally bawled my eyes out in the class on my last day, so yeah. But hey, nothing lasts forever right? And its not like our friendship ends right there right then, we can always contact each other, insha Allah. But i surely will miss them like crazy.
And hey, i also got a whole new friends at tuition and some of them apparently are from my new school, and its quite reasurring to know there will be some people i know in that school. Its not that i don't know anyone there, its the fact that it has been four years and a lot of things can change in that span of time. Oh, also i already bought everything i needed for next year, and its quite weird to be wearing a white uniform instead of beige and blue but hey, i'm still trying to get used to that. And i've never feel so prepared for school in my whole life haha.
To say that i'm scared is an understatement because, i'm totally scared like SERIOUSLY SCARED to attend school next year. I mean, firstly the surroundings would be totally different and then the students would be a lot more different and i'm just worried i would not fit in. God, its my last year and i really should start thinking about SPM instead of friends issues. But hey, who wouldn't be worried right?
So yeah, its still hard for me to accept the fact that everything will not be the same anymore. I'm growing up, everyone's growing up, and SPM is next year like ohmaigad there's a lot of things to take in at once. But that's life, right. And i should really start acting like a real 16 years old girl instead of a 5 years old kid. Oh hey, next year i'm turning 17. Edward please bite me so that i can stop growing up. Sorry but sometimes i can't really help myself by thinking that vampires are indeed real. Well damn you Twilight. Speaking of which, lately idk why but i think i'm being paranoid (don't get me wrong, by paranoid i mean becoming extremely worried or nervous about something) especially at night i mean sometimes when i was awake alone in the room and then i would feel like hearing some kind of noises and then i would freeze and start eyeing the door until some extent where i become totally scared and had to jump from bed and then ran to my bro's room. Because he's the only one who's usually still alive in that moment. And by alive i mean, still awake. I'm still figuring out the reasons though, i think it started when the 'thing' issue in my school starts and my mother also told me that i'm just trauma eversince, so yeah i feel like a total coward and a sore loser by everytime night comes.
Okay wow, that's a lot. So yeah i think i'll stop here. I just can hope everything went well insha Allah. Do pray for me c: Oh and here's some old pictures i found
Without these beautiful people, i will never know the true meaning of friendship. Thanks for always being there and thanks a lot for existing. God knows how much i love them.
Sorry but this photo is so adorable i can't help myself haha
Till then, bye bye. Assalamualaikum c:
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